12-28-03 - 3:09 PM

One reason I got burned out on writing poetry at all, was because everything I wrote sounded phony. I couldn't write a decent sounding poem, without it sounding self-serving and stupid.

I notice while reading some of my favourite diaries, that everyone wants to seem substantial when they write. They want their words to have meaning, even when it sounds totally....stupid. Just stupid.

That's not to say that everyone I read writes stupidly, I'm just saying that I've become a lot more cynical in the past three years...that's about the time since I last wrote a poem.

I used to pump them out like clockwork. And, from what I rememeber, They were pretty good. Well, some of them, anyway. Of course, maybe it's part of my maturing process?

Hmm.

All I can seem to do nowadays, is think of ideas for stories.

I need to learn how to draw comics, so I have an outlet to put these stories down. I don't have the patience to sit and write an actual novel...or even a story.

Maybe I could get a better camera, and use pictures to tell my tales. I could write short lines of prose and bookend them with pictures! AN IDEA!

Hm.

I think i've just become annoyed with the whole mess.

Heh.

Later, from the completely cynical today,

Ayrton

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