07-24-03 - 10:36 PM

That's me right now.

Don't I look happy?

Hmm. Not to say I'm depressed, just bored out of my skull.

My family seems to think that I should go to University sometime soon. I don't really want to, myself, but with the family breathing down my neck and that scholarship, it'd be kind of a waste not to go.

I'm kinda confused as well about my friends.

Do I whine too much? I think I must, and I suppose it's unpleasant to everyone else.

It seems to me that no one ever wants to hang out with me. I'm sure it's just my mind. Actually, i'm SURE it's just my paranoid self deluding my own mind, and giving me paranoia.

I have a screwed up mind. Serious.

The slightest mention of anything wierd makes me think of all the bad things that could stem from it, thus making me insane.

I really think that i've got to change my world outlook, and start thinking positive, before I drive myself insane and kill myself.

In good news, Ashley gave me this cool poster the other day. I'm going to frame it. It's black and white. my favourite kind.

I have got to get out of this house.

Like, Yesterday.

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